The beginning,
Yesterday, I cried for the woman that I wanted to be. Today, I cry in celebration of her birth. Yesterday, I cried for the little girl in me who was not loved or wanted. Today I cry as she dances around my heart in celebration of herself. I pray that your yesterday tears will be wiped, that you will find the courage to celebrate yourself and the lessons you have lived through, grown through, and learned through. The lessons that bought you to a deeper realization of yourself, of the child within you, and of the constant mercy and grace of God. Now, let's have a party and enjoy!
What's the Lesson When You Think You Figured Out the Lesson, and You Really Haven't?
When you are on a spiritual path there is a war going on inside you. It is two different personalities that need to be integrated. The old you has helped you survive in hard times and fights to stay alive, it knows your secrets and your history, it knows your defense mechanisms when your buttons are pushed, it knows what works for you and is terrified to try new things, and is comfortable with the way things are, and it wants control.
The new you is spiritually grounded and spiritually conscious and wants to know what works. It needs to emerge and needs to be proven. It believes it can change but the old you nags you called self-doubt. The new you sees the problems as challenges knowing there is a solution. It wants to confront challenges in a spiritually grounded way. When you are backed into a wall and the old you comes out again. So the challenge is to keep focused on the truth and build your spiritual muscles and stay away from the enemy who knows when you are doubtful and fearful.
